Anthology of Ramblings
an archive of attempts in saying a lot with little; generalisations, remarks and creative expressions
ON PURPOSE AND EQUILIBRIUM - (20201229)
Been thinking about the term 'purpose' today, what if, the term was swapped for 'equilibrium'. Such that in our time on Earth is this what we are searching for? - an equilibrium...
Swaying from one thing to another, trial and error, and that with each move we get closer to that equilibrium or further away from it, yet with each move and as we get older the and of sway decreases.
Overall, it is to consider that an equilibrium represents itself as more of a central point along a uniform line rather than a pinnacle, peak or singularity often connotations resting with 'purpose'.
ON RISK AND CALCULABILITY - (20201011)
What we know we can achieve and conquer, where there is guarantee for a calculative output from a calculative input. Thereby, we know the effort that we put in is rewarded ideally with a make-even or greater output.
THE SHADOW (20201007)
It creeps up on you, slowly, slowly, and then all of a sudden gobbles you up. You can feel it drawing you closer to its blanket of gloom, mist and fog. False teddy bears hugging you to make you stay in its dark and under its cloud. As it hugs you, as it clouds your steps and wanderings it makes you want to disappear, happily vanish from any care of yourself, or care another gives to you, it makes you believe that as a shadow, as an invisible figure, things are better. In doing so you begin to keep it as a friend, a familiar warm gloomy blanket that pessimistically draws you in, you keep coming back and returning because it is familiar; it, a false friend that provides you more comfort and stability than its opposite optimistic rival. And now we can begin to picture that dark clouded blanket wrapping us up, and keeping us strangely warm, yet, hollow and cold. Over time the more it stays with us the more we begin to understand it, it becomes an ever closer friend, an ally, to our everyday endeavours, tarnishing reality with a sweep of despair. But this familiarity we believe to be more trusting than any other, we know it, we do not want to let it go, our friend, our ally our adviser.
embarking on subtleties,
shoots and muddy paws,
a passing and continuation, un-lost,
a meeting and a greeting spanning a long haul flight
of months, a year,
a slow exchange.
ON AMBIGUITY (post-graduation) - (2020)
So many different roads, paths and directions that all of a sudden seem to come crushing down together. You lay there in the mist of things, stuck with all the potentialities that lay in the past and all that of the future, then one day the realisation came that all of these things were conceptualisations, were falsehoods of the present, but rather could be, the possibly, maybe, someday, rather than, the actualisation of the present. Even this text that is being written is seemingly ambiguous, un-concrete and despairing a sombre tone of un-enjoyment. At current the pressures of the outside world seem to swarm, en-lacing their marketing-branded blanket around you, entangling you with their commercialism, drawing you in to want and to pseudo-need. Then that is the point of being concrete about something so ambiguous, where can be lay our attention, how hard can it be to maintain focus, and not be swayed in a society that wants you to want to be more than you are, to be another, that advertises that you should be another.
ON NECESSARY EXCESS (it is difficult to escape a frame without a lens and a lens without a frame) - (2020)
Opticians vs. Business
Skill vs. Selling
The reduction of the optician to the optical stylist
The medical aspect
But the real enjoyment is in the salon
Filing through the frames
Identifying oneself with a frame
The lens no longer
For most (unless with a severe eye condition, refractive error or near blindness)
Contains a less weighty presence
Than in paramount of the frame
It is difficult to escape a frame without a lens and a lens without a frame
ON THE AUDIO COMPOSITION (20200106)
Somewhere There is a set score, structure, figurative bounding to such an audio composition. An audio composition; should it be defined by a rhythm, a beat, a metronome, or should it act to be compiled instinctively. Instinctively dependent on what - the surroundings, the response to a previous sound, these are some questions I sought to ask throughout my composition of audio collections - in the question of composition.
SOMEWHERE BETWEEN THE RAIN: in response to the forest fires in Australia, (20200106)
Somewhere between the rain, we find a pause, a moment of stillness, we find a passage, an opening of clarity
Somewhere between the rain, there is drought, dryness, there is a length of time
Somewhere between the rain, a riding breeze is passing, it tickles the cheek bones, and flutters gently in the hair
Somewhere between the rain, there is quite, a space for no words, a small gap all in perspectives,
Somewhere between the rain, thirst endeavours to consume us, consummate the inner and outer selves
Somewhere between the rain, we begin to acknowledge the surroundings, the burning, the burnishing, the dust
Somewhere between the rain, something is stirring, for this we need a spoon, a curve to pick up and whirl
Somewhere between the rain, a moment of dryness sparks, defying general known order, emancipating time
Somewhere between the rain, the earth is roasting, the green is turning textures of golden brown, red and yellow
Somewhere between the rain, eventually all turns dark, into soot and ash,
Somewhere between the rain, death speaks out,
Somewhere between the rain, we are taken.
ON TIME (AN OWING, A GIFT) -(2019)
I wanted to give you something. I am giving you something. But what? That was the question in play.
So I shall give you something luxurious, something few of us understand,
A phenomenon constructed, an element we debate of, a counter objectivity, a piece of subjectivity,
A collector can only collect its physical representation, in fury never feeling content,
As like air, the thing itself can never be grasped,
Reality too porous of a container
Through membranes it seeps, amalgamating into another but never there to stay,
We can flourish through it, allow for the contamination and dirt, festering which we can never be washed off,
Let us go play in the mud, take a walk in the wind,
Contrariwise, I owe you time.
ON PAUSING (meditations) - (2019)
We relate to routine, even if it is working against us, so discard of old patterns, create new flows, recognise what is in aid and our of aid for us. We like to stay in something that is predictable, that is why we stay in unpleasant situations, but the more that you crowd out with pleasant situations, and healthy practices (maybe at first it feels forced), the more you add in of the good, the easier it is to abolish the bad. It takes time, but just keep moving, keep crowding with pleasantness, what is good for you and what is good for your body, respect yourself, respect your time, say no, and others will begin to respect you. Pause, think, you have a choice, however small or big, make it a practice to pause and question. PAUSE
THOUGHT AT 00:38:06 - (20191102)
Listening to Timothy Morton: Philosophy is design is philosophy (March 14, 2016) thought at 00:38:06 concerning controlled body movement, bringing back the slow pace into design, through the actions that are used. Referring to the actions of the designer as the maker, the crafter. To create slow and more thoughtful designs do the actions of the individual need to be slowed down, presented with more grace, and at ease?
TO MANY HAPPENINGS (20190517)
Listening To many happenings
To find a place that is quiet
Recognition that there is a time and a place for everything
Assessing the outcome of not doing
If you do not practice, then you will not know.
SHADOW - response to the indoor lighting conditions within a gallery space (20190508)
A space void of time
Of consistent light
Unwavering colour tints
A platform for shadows
Fine tuning of an environment such that the clock remains still
A static dimension of fluid presence
A spatial collage,
fixing 3D to stagnation,
resembling and embodying a fixed movement,
washed by a field of diffuse light,
but not to touch.
Can there be a dimension without a shadow,
A static dimension with a fluid presence
Are we not unmoving
Static in thought,
Festering about a white space
Channelled rigorous visual experience
Is there such a thing as museum time
To enter a space without a watch,
without a clock,
without a time embodied face
A place to stay,
a place to linger
A hollow world of unmoving.
A NOTE ON MENTAL HEALTH - (20190418)
We relate to routine, even if it works against us, so discard of old patterns, create new flows, recognise what is in aid and out of aid for us. We like to stay in something that is predictable, that is why we stay in unpleasant situations, but the more that you crowd out with pleasant situations, and healthy practices (maybe at first it feels forced), but the more you add in of the good, the easier it is to abolish the bad. It takes time, but just keep moving, keep crowding with pleasantness, what is good for you and what is good for your body, respect yourself, respect your time, say no, and others will begin to respect you. Pause, think, you have a choice, however small or big, make it a practice to pause and question. PAUSE
Become an 'expert' in making yourself happy and in filtering towards pleasantness.
Create a container for yourself, shrink the contain to shrink the amount that you need (write lists of the needed, the used; frequent/ often, occasions, sometimes_ discard, rarely_ discard)
Question; why am I going shopping_ can I not make this if I really need it? Do I really need it? Can I cope without? Trial period without.
Devalue stuff, the things that have real meaning in life will be the things that you name, make into something more than just stuff; they have a personality.
Living in a state of chaos, gives prone procrastination behaviour, and the inability to commit to work or relationships. assessing what is meaningful with belongings, aids in assessing what is meaningful in a person. It is estimated that we lose 15-20% of out annual budget because we procrastinate and avoid making decisions about the way we live and function. There is always a choice, PAUSE, T.H.I.N.K,
Organise all; curate a structured and disciplined life, with constant renewal of less, focus on more, unorganised grocery shopping; leads to overspending (plan). Not following up with clients_ probably less enjoyment in business as not knowing what is going on. AWARE, REACT, FOCUS, PRIORITISE
WHY DEVELOP MORE (20190308)
Why develop more if we have already enough
ON BEAUTY (20190324)
To be beautiful, there are plentiful expectations,
beauty runs on the surface,
when someone says " I was just admiring your beauty"
question them with the response "so you can see inside?"
PLASTIC, PERFORMATIVE - (2019)
The Co-Existence of Plastic and Performative
The use of the term 'plastic' with 'performative', could be seen to provide connotations of the use of the body for expression within entertainment. The word 'plastic' contours the ideology of a society fit tool (body) which has been developed, trained for a specific purpose, 'plastic' further provides connotations of something fake, un-humanly, the lack of flesh, blood and bones, a structure made from a mould, a repetitive industrialised structure poured into a mould. But before the liquid (molten) plastic can be poured, the mould must be created. A mould structured upon a particular image of a tool, visualised in a given society at a particular point in time. The mould refers to a static ideology, that each tool must fit, and to fit in order to perform that task; with reference to this we have to question; how long shall this mould be deemed to last? (The Body as a Tool for Entertainment)
NEW PRACTICES FOR OUTWARD LOOKING - (2019)
The new practices for outward looking, why do we have mirrors in the gym if there is an instructor there to assess our practice, do these mirrors provide further gratification to the judgment of our bodies. Unnecessary in practices where you are mean to 'feel', analyse and sense inward. When did mirrors first appear in the gym? Why construct an area to fuel vanity for judgment in outward structure? Not to undermine the benefits of mirrors being within the gym environment; such as for alignment and to provide a more equal viewing of participants for the instructor, the short passage and questioning rather acts to express the potentiality of change, that an increased 'visualised' society, supported by mirrors can have contrary, distracting qualities on an inward looking practice. Nurturing the aestheticised form. Has this lack of inward looking had negative effects on the mental health benefits from these once inward now outward looking practices? Hence, with mirrors we begin to sense the increasingly objectified presence within a subjective practice. [Build a room of distorted, broken mirrors].
WORD LOSS - (2018)
Writing as an act
What do we even read anymore
The value of the word
In a long enthralling context
Has it been lost